I’ve been pretty quiet on the blog lately for a whole host of reasons, some of which I’ll get into now and others – well, you’ll just have to wait.
Since leaving Snapchat I’ve kind of used the break as a way to take a step back from the totally personal online diarising that I’ve been doing for the past few years. In other words, I’m moving away from documenting every moment of my life online and trying to find some space for myself in the real world.
A lot of this is down to the fact that, for good or for ill, I realised that the so-called “backlash” I was experiencing online had started to really affect me. I always prided myself on being someone who could just brush that kind of stuff off and hold my head high, but now I wonder if maybe I was just like the little boy with his finger in the dam – things had to come to bursting point eventually.
All that is to say that I’ve been doing a lot of reevaluating lately. If it sounds like I’m feeling sorry for myself, be reassured that I’m not! I’m just reassessing what I’m doing with my life and my time and whatever talents I think I might have. If I died tomorrow, I feel like most people would just remember me as a bit of an online shit-stirrer. And, while I would happily defend everything I’ve written, and my right to write it – and share my views, even if they’re not as “positive vibes only” as Internet 2017 would like – I’m not wholly comfortable with the idea of that being what I leave behind.
I want to do more with my life than cause trouble, or complain about things. I want to put more into the world than I have been.
I’m still going to blog, but more sporadically; I’m still going to be posting to social media (I’m done with Snapchat but Facebook, Instagram and Twitter are still all gravy) and I’m still going to say what I think and fight my corner. I just won’t be doing it so publicly online.
My third newsletter – delayed due to all of the above! – will be hitting inboxes later today so please, if you’re not signed up, do! Link is on my site (desktop version only I’m afraid) and Facebook page.
xoxo (A reformed) gossip girl